Some women maybe expecting baby right after the marriage and some not. This post relate to those who is in between of expecting and not (like I do!).
Why I’m in between expecting and not? Actually I want to enjoy several months just with my husband without thinking about pregnancy. It doesn’t mean I don’t want to have a baby, it’s more like I need a space.
My husband, on the other hand, really want a baby. I don’t know the exact reason, he just want. So, my husband and me decided to go with the flow. Unexpectedly, just about 2 months after our marriage, I was pregnant! Here are some words to describe pregnancy, in my version.
- Surprising
How can it’s not surprising? I don’t need to wait for a long time before I got pregnant. Only almost two months knowing that I was pregnant. Not only me surprised by the pregnancy but also my husband, my big family, and my workmates. It’s quite fast!
- Exciting
It’s especially for my husband because he really want a baby right after marriage. Excitement also seen from my siblings and friends’ faces. My parents maybe also excited too but they were not showing the happy faces. My mother maybe think it’s too early to be happy because it was only around 5 weeks old which chances to miscarriage still high. Me? I was happy because everybody happy, that’s all.
- Unbelievable
It was hard to believe that at that time I carry a growing baby inside my belly and by the time I will deliver him/her. There were no different shape within the entire of my body, especially my belly. Yeah, that’s because it was still 5-6 weeks pregnant. I realized some changes inside that unseen but still can’t believe I was carrying a tiny creature.
This unbelievable feeling occur as long as my pregnancy. Can’t believe that my body could carry a baby, bigger as needed by the baby, support my baby needs, and will naturally give a sign when my baby and me ready for delivery. The worst thing is I can’t believe could do my role as a mom. But then I reassured to be positive and believe that I can get through this motherhood.
- Confusing
I confuse all the time of my pregnancy. I confuse when I have to use public transportation, confuse in choosing a healthy meal outside home, and confuse to find any food which I crave for.
When I still working full time, I usually use public transportation to reach the office. I often use train and bus. Since knowing that I’m pregnant, my husband and I agreed to separated in going to work. I went by car with my mom then I continue took a bus. Since my belly still looks flat, I often reluctant to ask for a seat so I decided to stand if there is no seat available. In the same time, I worried about a tiny baby inside my belly.
A pregnant woman should have a healthy meal along the pregnancy. It’s confusing, especially if you are a working mom who rarely could prepare a lunchbox. Before being pregnant I could eat and drink anything: street snacks, food with MSG, high caffeinated drink, etc. But since I’m pregnant, I worry about the nutrition within the meal. I ignore any meal with MSG and stop my coffee intake. I also rarely consume street snacks since most of them contain MSG.
Related to coffee intake, I have an experience that makes me took a cup of coffee for the very first time during pregnancy. Since that unexpected moment, I have no worry to sip my coffee but in limited amount. According to americanpregnancy.org, a pregnant woman should limit her caffeine intake to less than 200 mg per day or 12 oz cup of coffee.
When I actually worry about nutrition facts of everything I consume, I crave for some foods that may contain unhealthy component. Sometimes, I crave for it but only for one slice 🙂 My cravings when I was pregnant are quite easy to find. I crave for some traditional food like sweet martabak and lumpia Semarang. I remember that when I asked my husband to buy sweet cheese martabak, I only ate one slice of it. I could say that at that time my husband and I has no confuse in getting martabak since the seller is near our house.
It’s start confusing when I crave for lumpia Semarang when it’s only a few days to Eid Al-Fitr. I crave for it because my parents and siblings were on vacation to East Java. In the middle of their trip, they visited Semarang then buy some lumpias and posted the picture on WhatsApp family group. I search for lumpia everywhere by using some food delivery apps but some store nearby already closed due to fasting time. I keep crave for it until my parents finally brought me lumpias on the next few days.
- Exhausting and Uncomfortable
Who can resist those two words? Each pregnant woman must be feel exhausted and uncomfortable during pregnancy but maybe in different intensity and variety. Based on my experience, I feel more tired than usual since the beginning of my pregnancy. It could be said that feel exhausted is my early pregnancy symptom. It makes me should limit my walking speed and amount of footsteps.
Many conditions could describe uncomfortable in pregnancy, some of them that I felt are morning sickness, painful in hips and back, go to pee often, and leg cramp. According to americanpregnancy.org, 50% of pregnant women experience morning sickness and some of them may suffer from the severe nausea which named Hyperemesis Gravidarum that leads to vomiting, weight loss, and electrolyte disturbance.
I experienced morning sickness along the first trimester. Actually, in the beginning of my pregnancy, I didn’t experienced it. I begin to feel nauseous followed by vomiting at 8 weeks, mostly in the morning. Because of that, sometimes I have to work from home. Thank God I didn’t suffer from the severe nausea.
That’s all the words that I think suit pregnancy best. I believe that every woman has their unique experience along pregnancy. Even most of the words I’ve mentioned above dominated by unpleasant things, I really enjoy and thankful that I already experienced it and live happily with my family.
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